#i. need to see a medical professional
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Again, gouache painting I made to relax
#my schedule is alright tomorrow maybe i'll be able to go to the library and do some med work there#i'm. surprised i actually WANT to study but also i still have this unhealthy obsession with drawing. however somehow it's more manageable#like. i actually SIT DOWN AND DO MY WORK?? AND HOMEWORKS??? HELLO???#but the. catch is my emotions are even more confusing and i am so ashamed of them i bottle them up AHAAA guess who will probably#--do vent art#i. need to see a medical professional#for this and. understand better how my brain works also. and. transgender moment (i am NOT passing guys)#toaster talks#rant#toaster draws#my art#omori au#omofalls#omofalls au#omori basil#traditonal art#gouache painting#gouache#sketchbook art#omori
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Does anyone else find it sort of upsetting how widely popular House M.D. has seemingly become in online queer spaces with how violently acephobic and intersexist it is? Like, I don’t want to pretend that it’s only queerphobic towards aces and intersex people, because the show definitely engages in its fair share of early-2000s-typical casual transphobic and homophobic language, and I do think it’s pretty biphobic that, from what I remember of the show, they made 13 (the one canonically bisexual character) a promiscuous party girl tm.
But the show is extremely vitriolic towards intersex and asexual people, and I wish that the people who treat it like a haha funny toxic yaoi show would at least fucking acknowledge that. The show actively reinforces the ideas about intersex bodies which are used to justify the nonconsensual mutilation of intersex children. And the way the show treats asexuality is abysmal. I saw someone on here once say that it’s “funny” that House is canonically aphobic, as if it’s just a joke that the House episode about asexuality actively supports the idea that asexuals are all either liars or medically unwell and in need of “fixing”. Why is pro-conversion therapy rhetoric suddenly funny when it’s directed towards us?
I’m not saying that no one is allowed to enjoy the show at all. Hell, I used to really enjoy it too, at least before I got to the asexuality episode (shortly after finding out I’m ace and before I had ever seen even a single other representation of asexuality in mainstream media). But like. Can people at least stop outright ignoring the absolutely detrimental effects this show had on the ace community and the intersex community?
#personal#ace#asexual#cw acephobia#it was a popular show! a lot of people who didn’t know asexuality even exists learned about it through this show that told them we need#to have our asexuality “cured” by a medical professional#I’m so so fucking sick of seeing others in the queer community treat acephobia as a lesser form of queerphobia#and we especially need to be doing better for the intersex community too because I am tired of#seeing other lgbtq folks throw intersex ppl under the bus whenever it’s convenient#(only to turn around and use intersex people as a gotcha against exorsexism)#not aroposting#I’m sure there’s also a lot more offensive shit in the show that I’ve forgotten because I haven’t watched it in a very long time#there’s definitely more that can be said about the intersexism in the show but I don’t know how to articulate that as well#someone who is actually a part of the intersex community could probably put it way better than I can#but hell. that incredibly intersexist episode was how I learned that being intersex is even a thing and I’m sure I am not the only one#I know more about the effects on the ace community (for obvious reasons) which is why I’m taking a bit more about that here but#I can’t even imagine how damaging House was (and still is!) to the intersex community
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buddie season eight this buddie season eight that
eDDIE DOING LONG TERM INTENSIVE THERAPY SEASON EIGHT WHEN
#i’m sorry but in the nicest way my brain is TRIPPING#like that man does not need a boyfriend to solve his problems#he needs a licensed medical professional#AND THEN HE CAN FIGURE OUT WHATS GOING ON ROMANTICALLY FOR HIM#but eddie has so much more work to do and more important shit than falling in love#please feel free to disagree with me but this is where i stand LOL#eddie 8-12 months of serious therapy before he even considers getting involved in any way with anyone#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#<- i may regret tagging let’s see
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codecicle you put things on my screen that are so confusing and have no relevance to my interests but its you so i find it so very endearing. keep having so much fun and whimsy on tumblr dot com child :3
you have GOT to get on this horrible TV show dude you don't even understand. it's bad and has 0 redeemable qualities, literally my bread and butter rn. can't get enough of it
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#you wanna watch house md. its sexist and racist and ableist and its written poorly and every episode makes you feel insane#its literally SOOO fucking good dude#im having fun and whimsy. my stupid little medical drama#this is so much more fun than greys anatomy. the romances are all psycho-competitive relationships#where they come up with new and interesting ways of gay sex. such as: bickering about diagnosis#and: looking a doctor in the eyes and telling him the different ways sex can kill a person#that scene wont leave my brain dude.#she just starts listing the different muscles you work out when having sex to him. at one point#after its already explained he looks at her and sees her professionally. but also cant get fucking her off his mind#she starts cornering him and explaining that core muscles are used. you feel like youre running a marathon#WHILE MAINTAINING EYE CONTACT. they dont even need 2 have sex shes gonna kill him just with the medical description#anyway i ❤️ house md. stereotypical pipeline from mcyt to this fuckin show man#/r ctntduo is exactly the same as every 'couple' in this show#<- couple in parenthesis. im not far enough 4 them 2 actually be together#and also whatevers wrong with them is MUCH funnier than romance
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I continue to be in awe by the power granted to me by having learned to read scientific papers.
#it took fucking FOREVER and sucked so bad for like the first year but wow i can learn so much stuff now!#i still can't understand all of them because i am an ecologist and don't have the background for other fields but usually#i can at least get the gist and a few important details out of all but the most dense ones#anyways i find it reassuring that i can read medical papers about things that are relevant to me and see what the experts are#saying about it when they think no one outside their field is watching#sometimes the data matters more than whatever they say in the 'translated for public knowledge' version or even contradicts it#would doctors be pissed to know i can do this? probably!#yes i am aware of the risks of taking information out of context that i lack the background to understand#but i'll take it anyways because i need a way to reclaim some power in the fucked up mess that is#the imbalance of power between medical professionals and their patients#hylian rambles
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the bro code among doctors is insaaaanee
doc2: "hmmm yes the treatment doc1 prescribed doesn't seem appropriate for the symptoms you are describing, this sounds confusing indeed. BUT I'm sure MY TRUSTED EXPERIENCED COMPETENT COLLEAGUE (these people don't know each other) decided this for a reason and this is the correct treament for uyo after all ^_______^ no I won't reevaluate you, despite having open appointments uwu go die from infection somewhere else"
#i really need to stop being open abt seeking reevalutation and should just lie abt seeing a doc before#sorry i can't think of manipulativ schemes to trick medical professionals into doing their job when im sick scared and in pain
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Ouuugh fuck yes the opthalmologist said I appear to be a strong candidate for LASIK :3c gotta coordinate with my other doctors for their opinions, but just this year my eyes finally stabilized enough to even HAVE these conversations in the first place!!! It probably wouldn't be something I pull the trigger on for at least another year, but very exciting to not be eliminated as a candidate bc of my autoimmune stuff :') it was also super cool as always to learn how providers explain some of these conditions + procedures on a patient level then a clinical level. Eager to talk shop with the opthalmology SME on my team :3
#Creepy chatter#Next month I want to confirm w my rheumatologist that my autoimmune activity is low enough for a procedure#But I had a great time picking this eye surgeon's brain about LASIK and contraindications :)#I'm thankful to have never needed eye care beyond vision correction but it was SO COOL to see an opthalmology surgi-center#Not as cool as when I went to malignant hematology but I am a professional cancer geek so apples to oranges etc#Anyway hiiiiiii doctors I promise I will be so normal and I will only read your medical documentation 1million times#Unironic fav activity is to compare my doctors' encounter notes to my recollection of the encounter#Really illuminates communication gaps on either side AND also I don't tolerate sloppy medical records at work OR for my health care#Anyway. Eager to read what a LASIK consult document looks like. He was a good doctor! :)
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Medical professional: *who has no actual reason to know why I'm using my wheelchair* so why are you using a wheelchair?
Me: Legs don't work well 🫤
Medical professional:
#cpunk#cripple punk#mobility aid#wheelchair#void post#result of talking to a friend#about how i get upset when medical professionals who DO NOT NEED TO KNOW#ask me why im in my wheelchair#and i feel obligated to answer because well they are medical professionals#and she called them stupid because ''are they stupid maybe it's because walking can be an issue for you''#''its like asking me why i wear glasses— well sir because i prefer to see''#it's actually for legs back overall pain and heart but do they really need to fucking know all that?#and i thought of a better way to answer their dumb question#legs dont work well#not a lie#short simple and probably makes them feel a tad stupid for asking
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when my roommates put things back in the kitchen incorrectly it makes me frustrated and angry. apparently, did you know, this is not a thing all or most humans experience ? some people don't have an intense emotional reaction to things not being stacked in the optimal way, or pans not being put back in their "usual" spot. did you know this. did you.
#personal#I'm having an online interview on autism tomorrow and so I'm researching and reflecting more#not like this is ground breaking or anything but just. it's interesting to me that this typically doesn't elicit an emotion for people.#I've been crying a lot over autism videos#I haven't had a chance to process my diagnosis yet really and there's still so much for me to learn and accept about autism#like feeling shame and guilt bcs of disability has been a huge problem for me lately. not being able to accomplish what I want to.#and seeing videos of other autistic ppl who were really attached to the idea of who they would become when they got older#or identified a lot with who they were while masking#and now have to let go of those things. and figure out who they actually are and are capable of doing without burnout.#whoof man. its a lot. i still haven't let go of who i thought id be when i grew up. to the extent that said struggle is part of my identity.#it's just. I am autistic. several medical professionals familiar with autism saw me and went 'yeah you are autistic'.#I spent so long learning how to better cope with my depression.#and it turns out some of that advice is opposite to what you need if its autistic burnout instead#which im gonna assume i just kinda had both going on at various times#i just. im not sure what to do with my life.#but i guess first i have to make my life more baseline liveable and enjoyable before i start pondering that#change is hard. basically. thats what this was about.
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Anthony Ainley guests as medical specialist Josef Kerston, a doctor but also (shock!) a villain, in The Adventurer: The Bradley Way (1.4, ITC, 1972)
#fave spotting#anthony ainley#the adventurer#doctor who#the master#ainley!master#classic doctor who#itc#1972#the bradley way#perhaps villain is a little unfair; it's briefly established that Ainley's doctor is a genuine medical professional whose involvement in#the villains' plot is because of pressure being applied on his family behind the iron curtain (so... does Gene defeating the#baddies plan get Ainley's family killed?? who knows‚ but i can't imagine it would lose Mr World's Greatest Everything any sleep)#he may not have been The Master yet but Ainley was a fairly regular face on tv at this point in his career. earlier in 72 he'd been a#co lead in ATV's spy thriller Spyder's Web‚ as well as recently guesting in high profile series like Elizabeth R‚ The Shadow of the Tower#and Out of the Unknown. he'd even recently made film appearances‚ with strong roles in The Blood on Satan's Claw and Assault#really this was his busiest period; by the time he was making Dr Who Ainley was more or less financially secure and didn't need to work#(famously he just absolutely loved being The Master‚ and it was more or less all he did from the 80s onwards until the end of the classic#series secured his retirement). i can't honestly say that he attacks this role in the same way as he did the Master‚ but then it's not much#of a part all told; he's just there to be doctorly and occasionally suggest sinister things are afoot. but always nice to see him pop up
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fuck, I hate telehealth, but ya know, I think I’d actually like it if it was in minecraft instead of a video call. Let’s do therapy in roblox or something.
#having a relationship with your therapist is unethical… but what about running a dungeon together in world of warcraft??#today we’re going to talk about my abandonment issues while we build a mountain base in minecraft together#shit… I was just joking but this is actually sounding kinda rad#but wowwee do I hate telehealth#I hate professional video calls#I always feel like I’m saying the wrong things or I’m not talking enough#my last psych appointment was telehealth and it suuuuuuucked#oh man I don’t even know if I ever posted about this#it just felt so awkward and I was always worried someone could hear me on the call through the apartment walls#and he was like basically ‘just try to think positive’#fuck you fuck you fuck you and also think about my butthole and fuck you#thanks for the meds but never say that shit to me again#like… my therapist is a cool guy. I ‘love him. or as much as you can love your doctor in a distant platonic way#he’s always so cool about ‘yeah your chemicals are all messed up’ and he’s doesn’t shut me down at least not without actually understanding#but my psych who works in the same office does telehealth and seems very distant and not great at talking about deeper issues#which is fine. really. I just needed a doc who’d give me a fair shake and help me with the medication side#but I have to do telehealth for him and it feels so awkward and shallow#can’t we just do a 5 minute phone call? ‘hello. can we up the dose of my meds? yes? okay thank you.’#I see you typing on your computer a lot. I’m not saying anything interesting. if you’re on neopets just say so#anyway I only thought about this bc I guess I COULD do telehealth therapy today or something#but like I said. telehealth feels awkward and I wouldn’t be able to open up over it#it’s cool tho for like… I dunno. people who can’t go in person or need quick visits or whatever#I’m not saying it’s not useful or a viable option. I personally just hate phone calls and video calls.#and I love video games bro 😎#and I love you#goodbye forever#text
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bro how are you brave enough to tell your dad abt this
Because I have the best dad! There's no bravery honestly.
My grandma [his mom] even kinda knew lol, she wished me a good wedding in Harvest Moon jkbvdfbkjfbjfvbjk she definitely didn't get it, but I think she was just glad I was happy.
As I said in the past [iirc, I think I mentioned this previously at least] dad even has written Christmas gift tags as "To: [my name], From: [character I like]". The funniest was when they bought me Book of Atlantic and the tag said it was "From your husband Sebastian" XD
He also extra supports me keeping all my old fanfics, considering how they're like "time capsules" of me at certain points in life. From the age of my self insert to even what she regularly wore in the fic [and how long the outfit descriptions are] can help me pinpoint when the fic was written, down to the month. Basically, a combination of fandom, Bronwen's age, her style, and even her chosen career path outside of writing all tell me when it was created. Kinda like carbon dating but for fanfic, lmfao.
#my TFP isekai fic is a top tier example of this#TFP fixation? Gothic Lolita and Lolita clothing style? Writer and medical professional at the same time? S/i is 20-22?#That's 2017 September babey#Isekai kuroshitsuji fic; fairly accurate victorian fashion; author and game dev? s/i is 18-20?#That'll be November 2014 for $200 Alex#It's almost embarrassing lol#but it also contains a LOT of emotions; fears; hopes... all sorts of things from that time#from daydreams to text#it tells me so much about what I was concerned about and what I felt would soothe my pain#yet also remind me of what I have and love#For example- NO isekai fic EVER has the s/i excited to be in the new world. she's fucking devastated#why? because she loves her family and is crushed she can't see them anymore#the conflict comes from her love from her family needing to be reconciled with her love for her love interest[s]#and her needing to choose [if the option appears] if she wants to return to her family or keep the love she's always hoped for#to me it was a reminder that I will always have my family#but to also not fear change and the future#many aren't finished but honestly? Little me has a lot to say. Lots of feelings#also some deeply fucked up poetry that kinda sucks ass. but she tried#like jesus christ girl you should have asked for therapy sooner
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To those I have things I need to respond to that are off tumblr, I'm so sorry about my speed. I promise I'm still thinking of ya'll, my brain hasn't been cooperative for the last few weeks.
#&&. the author speaks ( ooc )#&&. when I get insurance again I really need to talk to a medical professional to see if there is anything that can help this#&&. because boy am I getting tired of struggling through things I even enjoy
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let me preface this by clarifying i am not anti therapy in any way whatsoever and in fact encourage people to get therapy if they can and even go the extra step to help friends find the right type of therapy that may help them
ok now that that's out of the way.
therapy is bullshit man you go to a therapist saying "hey. i wanna kill myself. can you help me stop wanting to kill myself somehow?" and they go "sure! first step, stop wanting to kill yourself" and you say "well i can't. that's why i came to you. bc i don't know. how to stop wanting to kill myself" and they'll say "that's a shame. i can't help you if you want to kill yourself. that'll be 125$ please"
#mad abt my old therapist again#even checked the cost of sessions in usd to make this accessible. came out to be 124$ and a bit. and i did that on a weekly basis for YEARS#and i'm extra mad bc trying to find a new therapist is already hard esp with bpd where your options are very limited as is#but when they ask abt my history with therapy and they ask why i stopped seeing him after years. what am i supposed to say#so that scares them off and they say they can't help me or they're like. scared to go deep with me ig. bc idk. they're scared I'll snap?#what am i supposed to do. hospitalizing myself isn't an option obvs. what is there left.#it feels like a cycle#like. 'i can't help you if you don't want to help yourself'. but i need help even figuring out how to want that#and it's not like ppl in my life know how to help. tbh they usually make it worse. so loved ones aren't an option and professionals aren't -#- an option. so what is there left. how am i supposed to do a thing that comes naturally to others but not to me#even with medication even being in a recovery program i want to kms more than i used to for years#I'm supposedly taking the right steps. but. to get metaphorical ig. the road is crumbling and there's nowhere to go#and that only makes me spiral more. despite taking the right steps i feel like i'm only getting worse. there's no hope for me. lol#vent#suicide //#negative //#ask to tag#i need a good cry like full-on sobbing and screaming but unfortunately. i became too emotionally constipated for that
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i love it when Julian Bashir's depressed 🥰🥰🥰
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ohhhh my god. okay. so. my aunt does like, she buys random junk in bulk from retail wholesalers and then resells it on like, facebook marketplace and ebay and stuff. whatever. so my mom works for her. makes a flat $50 a day, regardless of the fact that shes disabled and doing hard labor for at least 8 hours a day, often 10+. and min wage here is $10 an hour but mom argued that $50 a day is still more than what she would make working the same hours at an actual job because of taxes...like girl that would be 50% taxes. you do not pay that fucking much. so thats already Bad.
but today mom shows me a video of a knife theyre gonna sell, and i watch 2 seconds and i realize its an automatic knife, and i tell her hey. thats illegal to possess in this state. let alone sell! and mom is like ohhh [aunt] knows what shes doing itll be fine.... we sell knives on there all the time she just doesnt put pictures and calls them something else on the listing to get around fb/ebays policies :)
LIKE. HELLO. THATS NOT BETTER. YOURE COMMITTING MULTIPLE CRIMES. *AS YOUR JOB.* and she was just like "its not a big deal she knows what shes doing." folks, this is the same aunt that, very illegally, paid me to sort through her clients confidential tax documents and bank records and stuff. because she works for a bank. and took the records home to sort them. i dont think she DOES know what shes doing, actually!
#why do both of my parents need to be so impressively incompetent. i like. cannot find the words for how . i feel about this#like. idc about crimes. go forth. be free. but maybe. just maybe. you should not make your job#“hi today i will post about how i am selling illegally possessed objects on a widely used public forum”#dont do crimes STUPID. yanno.#in other parent news. its now like. month 6 or so of dad refusing to get his insurance reinstated.#hes been on the same step (taking his paystubs to the dhhr office) for like 3 months?#anyway apparently he found out today/last night that when he was a kid he was diagnosed with gastroparesis !#which is like ! cool! you have a diagnosis AND ive been living with that for 16 years and can help you 🥰#but we were sitting there with mom (this was right before the knife thing) and she was like “well you gotta get your insurance now so you#can get on the right meds“ and dad was like yeah ill go....#and mom was saying well go in the morning when they open etc etc and he was like i will#and i pointed out that just two weeks ago i told him that too. and he didnt want to. bc hed lose money due to not being able to work#and mom was like well he doesnt work at 8am. and i was like yeah i know but i told him to go at 8am two weeks ago and that was his response#and then he proceeded to claim that this whole time he didnt know they opened at 8am.#folks. he doesnt start working until like...usually 10 or so. WHAT GOVERNMENT OFFICE DOESNT OPEN UNTIL 10.#PLUS. WE LIVE IN A RURAL HOUR. *BUSY* TAKES LIKE AN HOUR. MOST OF THE TIME YOURE IN AND OUT WITHIN 20 MINITES.#ive been fucking considering PAYING HIM to go get it.#and then he claims he didnt know it opened at 8am. when i have told him that. MULTIPLE TIMES.#WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THISSSS THEYRE THE MOST IMMATURE ADULTS IVE EVER MET AND THATS IMPRESSIVE!!!#IVE KNOWN PEOPLE WHO PAY THEIR RENT IN COKE OR WHO ARE ESSENTIALLY PROFESSIONAL PARTIERS. AND *THEYRE* MORE RESPONSIBLE AND MATURE THAN MY#PARENTS. SO WHAT GIVES.#also theyre 50 like cmon yall. youre not even 20 or 30. i think you should know how to not like. get your job shut down or die of lack#of medication.#did i tell yall one of the times a few months ago i was nagging dad abt getting his insurance#his response was literally. no exxageration.#he was like oughhh i dont wanna see doctors because then theyll find out somethings wrong with me#and ill have to go on a bunch of medication.#and then he actually for real. said.#“being on too many medications killed my grandma”#even mom was like cmon man. thats not even true. they misdiagnosed her and put her on WRONG meds. she wasnt even on that many.
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